Melancholic Rhythm

Lol

2007-10-13T23:30:00.000-07:00

Four post away I was lamenting that I just turned 21...LoL

Now four post later..I'm freaking 22....

Wow 4 post a year...

Till we see each other again

2007-06-28T06:26:00.000-07:00

Time, so slow.
Pain, excruciating.
Yearning, rages
Tears, overflowing
Love, undying

Till I see you again,
every heart beat is a toll
that drags this beaten body down the path to glory
Till I can bask in your glory again can I live, just for you

Let us bear arms

2007-06-28T06:09:00.000-07:00

Oh brothers, hear me!

Forget the lovers we had or could have.
Forget the wives you are leaving behind.
For if this war is not fought,
you will have non anyways.

This war must be settled irregardless
Brothers have come and gone
But we the immortals remain.
Let us not be the sleeping giants,
to arms my brothers

Lets take the world by storm. With a might that only we can have!

A Seal of Kiss

2006-09-24T01:42:00.000-07:00

Seal it with a kiss.
Seal us with a kiss.
And mountains cannot keep us apart, for we are one in heart, in mind, in spirit.

Distance would mean nothing as we have each other in heart to company.
Pain is of distance past as in mind we sooth each other.
And we will soar, for in spirit, we can achieve great heights.

21

2006-09-13T09:44:00.000-07:00

Shi*, four post away and I was 20.

TIME DOES FLY. Been a flurry of things this past year that I don't even have the stamina to write that much. Great.

Now i'm 21, adult and fully responsible for whatever i signed on the line.
Damn.

Change

2006-09-13T09:18:00.000-07:00

Change is the only constant in this world

Change that happen within, the monster grew a conscience.
Now I am able to ask, "What have I done!?!"
And What have I done indeed.

The thrill is always in the chase, after the kill all there is left is meeting primal needs.
As my fangs punture, my mind reeled and raced, and most importantly, scream
"WHAT HAVE I DONE!"

Alone in snow white silence

2005-10-30T07:04:00.000-08:00

Realisation
Alone
Back to the time where dreams are only dreams

I want to cry
Where are my eye drops
This battle weary heart holds no tears
not even for you

That familiar feeling
That old emotion
Rising
Stiring

Was it not dead?
The Beast!!
Darkness enclose me as it wakes
Who is to wake me up now !!!

That deafening roar of the beast
Its heart beat tempting me
Its sly smile calming me
I loose myself in snow white silence

Must it?

2005-10-18T22:58:00.000-07:00

Hack, must it come to this end?

Must we chase away the sleeping ancients and run after young ones with uncertain future?
With death there is birth, but was it necessary for such extreme choice to be made
I am speechless
I am enraged

How could they do this
How is it they do not see that The Family is what they need
Yet close our doors in desperate time
Outrage

Must I?
Could I?
Damn!!!

dans le Grey

2005-10-18T22:50:00.000-07:00

Can you feel my heart crying out?
Can you not tell these tears are for you
Must I scream just so you turn this way
It just is meaningless when it ends like that

There never was a need to choose
Treasure what we have and hope for a future
Was that not the way
Can it not be the way

They say the devil deals in the colour of grey
Deal with me than
I am no devil
I am just the grey messenger

Come into my embrace
I love you

20

2005-08-30T06:32:00.000-07:00

Rude awakening.
I'm 20 offically

After living majority of your childhood live wondering how it feels like to be all grown up at this age, not too all and not too young, it sucks.

Sorta fun today, had my face smashed into a cake. I don't really think that I got the choice of not having my face caked. Chee yong looked like the devil when he was about to do it, talk about friends hahahaha

Ghost

2005-08-30T04:18:00.000-07:00

Ghost...
Ever haunting never ceasing
Chasing
ME...

Its power, ever so tempting
Fingers lingering
I want I want I want IT!!
GIVE ME

The power of my ghost
what I can do with it
But I cannot, I simply refuse
Its dark descend

Light
My choice over darkness
Grasp me tight tonight
keep me safe from my ghost

Reflection
Roaring devil I see
Kept in chains trying to break
Please, remain bound

And let light shine through

Fc6

2005-08-28T19:58:00.000-07:00

Sitting here at food court six of Singapore Poly. Blogging. It's stuffy, its warm, its sticky. Turns out all the lessons I have today are cancelled. Reached school to find my classmate enjoying the aircon with a face that reads, we'r screwed.

What the hell I woke up so early for than?!?

Damn, its funny blogging at a foodcourt,the smell of food is distracting. I'm getting hungry, must live up to the spirit of the festival, Hungry Ghost. HA.

Aiya. Titus came down with something apparently. I had a lunch appointment with him, now I'm stuck with foodcourt food. Not really that tantalising if you ask me. Though some sistarZ mentioned the love of the nuggets at fc6, but we can't live on just nuggets alone can we? :p

Booked a thailand tour yesterday. People complained that it was a rush and alot of other paper works are not done, passport, it really bugs me that if HuiYi has trouble going than it'll be our fault. Well owning up to the fault is not that hard, it's compensating her that's the problem.

Aiya... I'll just sacriface myself and give one night.... ... .. .. muahahahah

Am I that expensive? YES!!!
Expensive, but value for money!!

Got to go, must help out in project or should I eat?

Why??

2005-08-25T08:57:00.000-07:00

Sitting here in front of the keyboard, LP music blasting softly, I came to realise why I decided to blog... My computer sucks!!! I found out that my brother's cluttered and application ladden desktop can still run applications faster than my freshly formatted system. Damn. Thinking back when I first got the PC it was amazing... Now....well it still is and I'm pretty happy with it. That is not the point. The point is that I can do much with it, except writing blogs hahahahaha isn't that fun?!?!?!
Which brings us to the point that we all age...hack that sucks....
Can't for the life of me imagine the day when I lost touched with this crazy world....hmmm Imagine no more, I've pretty much lost it, but I'm not going down without a fight!! They'll have to drag me away in chains!!!

Ranting....hahaha

Interestingly enough a bloody cab driver actually bumped into me while I was having my driving lesson. 1414 if any punter is interested. Wahahaha gotta get my mum to buy it, being a innocent and naive boy boy, that shaves his horns every morning(whoops, what horns??), I dun really buy 4D...or I'm just lazy to get it.

Did nothing much in school today. I really do have a sinking feeling the project is going down hill. Oh right...there's no hill we ARE at the bottom. Help??

Peer Pressure

2005-08-23T07:31:00.000-07:00

Peer pressure is real...
Believe it
Its good enough to the point that a person such as myself that was once convicted to not devulge too much of my life on the internet to actually sit down and write something that is not abstract to the point I don't even understand myself...

Which is good in a way as people will not start calling their shrink screaming, "SomeBody needs help!!!"
They have a shrink??

Had a pretty stale day. Had nothing to do in the IT lab so I went out the the benches and napped. I seriously wonder if I am an embarressment to myself.
There were a few occasions I woke up with my mouth hanging wide open... I do hope it's not that grotesque. Hell...I dun have a mirror do I?
Dude....what would people think? Hack...I can't bear to show my face in school again

Went home to a proper bed and slept.

Hmmm who was that guy sitting with rena today...heee maybe she'll want to answer it
tag board is over there gal
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Obsession

2005-04-20T07:40:00.000-07:00

And so.

You become my obsession
Every turn I make
Every face I see
Every picture I glance

I see you

Can't get you out of my head
What have I done for you to haunt me so
Have I done something wrong?
What is it!!
Every loving thought of you garners more regrets
I was so young back than

Not ready

Not ready to walk the devil's trail
Not ready to survive the savage garden

Will you forgive me?

For all the things that I should have done but did not?
For all the things I did that I should not?

Or must I burn for it?
When two fiercely intense soul parts...Will they ever find solace

Will I ever find solace

I'm so selfish, I'll burn

Mistakes

2005-04-01T05:41:00.000-08:00

When one has lived his life making mistakes over and over againhow can one not help feel this way.

Numb.

Food is tasteless.
Jokes seem stale.
Nothing really interest me.

Sitting here wallowing in self-pity.
Hoping against hope some one would come and take me away.

Than again.

Do I want that to happen. Would we have prefer the sweet ignorance of a life cast around wrong choices or take the glorious step over to the light.

Happing Ending

2005-04-01T05:37:00.000-08:00

When I close my eyes, I can still see your face.
When I close my eyes, I can still vaguely hear your voice.
When I close my eyes, the memory of your scent excites me.

Flashes of memory.

The times we were together.
The things we did.
The food we ate.
The shows we have been to.

They assult me, ensnaring me into The Darkness.
Trap there with only the memory of you to company me.

Not a happy ending.

Anguish of Pamela

2005-03-28T06:43:00.000-08:00

i'm a nobody to my love

i'm a loner to myself

i'm a brat to some kids

i'm a nerd to somebody

i'm a green object to myself

i'm a shopaholic to somebody

i'm a daughter to that lady and gentleman

i'm a peanut to everybody

i'm a sister to that missy and mister

i'm a friend to some

i'm a girlfriend to besties

i'm a joke to him

i'm a cell without battaries to wammy

i'm a speaker to someone

i'm a learner to teachers

i'm a magazine to readers

i'm a hushbrown to myself

i'm a clown to him

i'm a metal case to few

My desires are thwarted and life becomes too much for me, it's easy to reject life and pain it brings, easier to die than to live. It is an easy thing to adopt a philosophy of despair, to say, i mean nothing, nothing matters, i live only to die. Am i suppose to pull down those shades and quietly expire? He could be eluded but i choose not to. These changes in my life are getting me mad. The rhythm of death obsessed me with it's beat, a beat so regular, so pervasive, so inescapable that it made me living in a place of shadows in dark valleys.

pammy.

ps
A little something I ripped from a friend of mine, not really ripped cause I had her permission. Pamela's her name. Enjoy

Dreams

2005-03-13T09:04:00.000-08:00

Woke up hearing my own screams,
whose name was it...
that I've been screaming,
trying so hard to reach.

I don't think screaming would get the job done,or get the image of you out of my mind.
Image? What image...
Can't see a thing,didn't hear a voice
Except, maybe, the soft touch of your soul, driving me wild
I long, I crave, I desire...who?
Can't seem...
Can't tell...
Whiteness.Blank.

What gives

2005-03-09T07:14:00.000-08:00

What am I to you
What are you to me
Suddenly I am afraid of losing you,
to the point of tears
What to give,to hear your whispers again,
and to see those sweet tears on your face
The image of you burned into my soul
I will carry you with me into darkness
Most desired darkness

Again

2005-03-09T04:27:00.000-08:00

Out of the smoking ashes I rise again,like the eternal phoenix that I am.
Determined to dazzle and charm, with some form of tangible success, this time.

Anyway, what my blog will be, is merely an outlet for my creative juices.
Constructive criticism for my writings are welcome. Just make sure you have the bloody backing for what ever you dare accuse me of.

You know, I can't stress how much I hate being critiqued for being unoriginal by someone who tags with a name obviously ripped off a book and its movie. Still, I have not really gotten over the fact that I deleted his contact which I think was left there, cause I really would like a chance to take a shot at the guy's apparently overly inflated ego.
Oh well, I'm back. Enjoy what I have here for you.