Obsession

And so.

You become my obsession
Every turn I make
Every face I see
Every picture I glance

I see you

Can't get you out of my head
What have I done for you to haunt me so
Have I done something wrong?
What is it!!
Every loving thought of you garners more regrets
I was so young back than

Not ready

Not ready to walk the devil's trail
Not ready to survive the savage garden

Will you forgive me?

For all the things that I should have done but did not?
For all the things I did that I should not?


Or must I burn for it?
When two fiercely intense soul parts...Will they ever find solace

Will I ever find solace

I'm so selfish, I'll burn

Mistakes

When one has lived his life making mistakes over and over againhow can one not help feel this way.

Numb.

Food is tasteless.
Jokes seem stale.
Nothing really interest me.

Sitting here wallowing in self-pity.
Hoping against hope some one would come and take me away.

Than again.

Do I want that to happen. Would we have prefer the sweet ignorance of a life cast around wrong choices or take the glorious step over to the light.

Happing Ending

When I close my eyes, I can still see your face.
When I close my eyes, I can still vaguely hear your voice.
When I close my eyes, the memory of your scent excites me.

Flashes of memory.

The times we were together.
The things we did.
The food we ate.
The shows we have been to.

They assult me, ensnaring me into The Darkness.
Trap there with only the memory of you to company me.

Not a happy ending.